Minutes to Midnight

It is minutes to midnight as I write this entry. I begin to reflect upon my life and think about the things of my past, about my childhood and growing up. I think about the things that I've done, all the good times and the bad times, the ecstatic times when I have done well and the times of despair when I made mistakes.

Through these times, I realised I had become my own harshest critic. In my journey to become a better person, I have often berated myself for the mistakes and some moments of these bitter memories surface from time to time to haunt me. Sometimes it's easier to forgive others for their mistakes than forgiving oneself.

As the Desiderata puts it, "Beyond a wholesome disciple, be gentle with yourself." We all need to learn to forgive ourselves. We are not perfect beings ourselves and will make mistakes as well.

Linkin Park - What I’ve Done

In this farewell,
There’s no blood,
There’s no alibi.
Cause I’ve drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousand lies.

(Chorus)
So let mercy come,
And wash away
What I’ve done.
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done.

Put to rest,
What you thought of me.
While I clean this slate,
With the hands,
Of uncertainty.

(Chorus)

I start again,
And whatever pain may come.
Today this ends,
I’m forgiving what I’ve done.

I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go off what I’ve done.
What I’ve done.
Forgiving what I’ve done.